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Today i still thinking the same thing , the same question to myself , where am my real soul ? where did i went to ? i repeat and repeat many times to asking myself , wat problem to me ..
im hv conflik to myself manytimes , wat i hv done and wat did i get ..... is tat worthless ? i am so suck ......... if i can choose ........ i hope to leave this world ...........................................................
leave all of the unhappy thing tat had happened to me , im down and wordless now , i felt tat myself woudlnt like to talk to others ppl anymore ... include my love one ... wat should i do ?
am i sick ? where is the real of me !!!!!

Hmm....

I Had Been long time dun hv come here to write blog , coz abit busy on my study . hmmm ... now at last i can release all my pressure out of my brain .. although me now no nid so busy on my study , but sumthing had happened to me .... it looks so fantasy , hard to see clear wat the problem , i had been missing on myself for so many days , wat should i do now ? wat happened to me ? am i going to mad ? or anything else ? i had question myself many times , but i still didnt get the answer .... who can noe deep wat im thinking ? i think there is nobody , include myself ....
i had been searching everywhere for my real soul , but where should i start actually ? its so hard to explain for everything .... everything tat all happen to me , in this moment i juz realized sumthing tat everyhting are start from zero , include me and all of u guyz .... i think maybe im thinking too much in this , but i juz cant stop question myself ........ in this moment , i will put all thing down , try my best to search back my real soul , the real boy , the real Jackson Teh Jun Shen ......... 醒醒吧。。。鄭俊紳

Wow

I'm very happy now , in the beginning of this year , my father bought me a mini cooper , i love it so much , now i everyday drive it go to school and go out to shopping with frenz , but last week i get a big surprise again , my father bought a new car for me again , haha , it is BMW latest model , i love it much , although my dream car is Fairlady , but this BMW is damn nice , love it very very very very much . Today i try to drive my brand new baby go out to Bkt.Bintang , wow , it is so nice , i felt cool when driving it , i love it much , but me now still driving my mini , coz i scare my new baby get 'hurt' , coz i abit stupid in driving , haha , but my mini didnt get any hurt be4 , haha , anyway , i love all my cars , muackss

Let it go .... my love

Hmmm , after tat day , i hv knew tat i should giv up and let u go , if u really happy together with tat XXX , i will let u go , coz i understand tat , love a person not to hv it , juz see tat person happy then enuff , but anyway ..... i will still beside u , i wouldnt go anywhere .... coz i understood tat .... ya .... i understood tat love is not all , had sumthing more important then tat , tat is frenship , i will try my best to do as good as i can , i will try to treat u as a fren , a buddy .....

summore i wanna to say is to u XXX .... dun let me see u hurt Jxxx , i'll fuck u 99 i tell u , i let J to be urs , becoz tat J wish to be urs , tat wat i can do , not means tat i giv up , u dun siao , my heart will alwiz be with J , although i knew tat u are bad , all the gals are hurt after couple with u ... but wat can i do ? i juz can let it go , let it go .................... and let it go with u this sucks guy

My Hope

Few days ago , im very sad and felt down , my life is sucks , i juz dun understand why u dunno wat i felt , juz why ? u think i kidding or wat ? i noe tat i useless , and stupid , but wat ? did tat means anything ? dun charge a person identity with those fuck little stupid option , u think i crazy ? but i can tell u tat , i am serious !!! i everyday hoping tat u will noe wat i feel , but at last wat u did to me ? be good to others ? then wat should i do ? i juz onli can run away from u , and let u and XXX be happy , juz keep myself in a stupid place and keep silent , sumore wanna acting 'im ok ' ... 'nvm' infront of u two , do u think tat is a easy thing ? if yes ... u are sucks ... now i being wordless infront of u , i dunno wat i should talk abt , if u wan me to talk with u abt tat XXX , then i better keep my mouth in the pocket and be silent , juz really acting tat is nothing to me , i maybe not dare to tell u tat sumthing , but in here , i hope to say tat , all i wan and hope 4 a long time is not juz this , i really hope u can understand my condision sumdays .... i really really really hope tat u can be mine